I thought I would have many posts for April since I decided to participate in Camp Nano. However, starting the month off with a bad case of food poisoning and trying to push through it to get words down was harder than it sounds. I can say that since the 1st, I have made an effort to write something every day, even if it is as few as 32 words. In doing that, I’ve discovered that I enjoy writing streaks and am considering ways to continue it after camp. There’s something about being able to see my progress that feels really good. On the other hand, it’s eye-opening. As I write, I question lines, sections, pace, and character perception. Sometimes, I really need a fresh pair of eyes to look over it and let me know if there’s an issue or if it’s just my inner critic.
I hate how much I mention my lack of team and how it hurts me. I was on a roll with writing one day and randomly remembered that I may be releasing books without so much as a Beta because when there is a deadline, I can’t afford to wait weeks or months for people to get back to me. I don’t know what to do at this point, and it’s the main reason I’m dragging my feet when it comes to posting about these projects and revealing anything. I don’t want to say anything and then not release it because I care about the quality of my writing and refuse to drop a hot ass mess expecting people to understand my situation and pay for it anyway. The reality is I may never release another book. That thought is worrisome and painful.

Choosing to remain optimistic, I keep going, but I can’t help but wonder if it’s for nothing. My goal has been and remains to have fun with it. However, the frustrations are always there.